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as I sit here and I close my eyes.

I see it all so clear.

I see you and I can feel your smile, it’s for me.

all around us there is so much chaos

so much noise.

it’s dark.

but as I focus in on you

I can feel you

I am comforted

I settle in to you

and I can’t help but reciprocate that smile

I haven’t felt this joy in months

I open my eyes and am reminded of the pressing dark

I feel the chaos

but you are so bright that I am blinded by your hope

currently that’s all I can see

but still I hesitate

how long will this last?

with a deep sigh I realize something

it doesn’t matter

right now, I am here with you

and it’s here that I will rest

I will rest in you

you pursue me

Check & Check.

- Wrote

- Snuggled with Stinky

- Enjoyed the rain

- Made brownies

- Jumped in the pool

- Ate brownies, drank milk

- Graced a thrift store with my presence

- Visited Sister’s Art Show

- Watched Oscar

- Downloaded Google Chrome

- Learned that it'll rain all weekend

- Realized it’s only Friday!

joy has been found

I am tired. But none the less I've been blessed with eyes this week; eyes to see God & His goodness. Thanks Jesus!

I love how the Lord is enough; now lead me to parade about in that joy! The joy that is yours, the joy that you have showered upon us!

Here is a song we sang to Him this evening; I like it:

Your Presence is Our Joy

Compared to You Lord, we are but a breathe

Here we are in need of rest.

Draw near Lord, draw near

Draw near Lord, we invite you in.

Holy Spirit Come

Heal our guilty hearts

Lead us to the cross

Fill us with your love

Hallelujah, hallelujah

Holy Father we are full of sin

It steals our joy Lord, oh brokenness

Draw near Lord, draw near.

Draw near Lord, we invite you in.

Holy Spirit come

Heal our guilty hearts

Lead us to the cross

Fill us with your love

Hallelujah, hallelujah

Your presence is our joy!

Your presence is our joy!

Your presence is our joy!

Your presence is our joy!

Hallelujah, hallelujah

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Being sick.

I was gonna say "is no fun", but its actually been kinda entertaining!!

The other night I watched Knowing with Nicholas Cage. Well, he wasn't here, he was in the movie... anyways! It's about him knowing when the end of the world is & feeling like he needed to do something to save people.
Well, I watched it right before bed & the whole night I kept waking up feeling like I needed to save people; only I couldn't cause I was sick. In the morning I was glad to realize that a crazy movie + me being sick = crazy dream, & not a reality of me needing to save the world single-handedly. That's a lot of pressure you know!

Boggle

So the last few months, God has been changing a lot of things in my life. It has been difficult, & definitely uncomfortable; yet through it all, good. But now I feel I have kinda gotten to the point, that if this life were a game of boggle, we are in the last of the settling phase; trying to get that one last letter to just straighten up a bit. By no means is that to say that what lies ahead is easy (for all i know this board may be filled with Qs, Ws, Zs . . . . all next to each other with no vowels to be found!), but I am ready to see what it holds.
Life is new, life is challenging, & it is most certainly beautiful!
Let's go!!

The Art of Asking

The art of asking is something that is something that I have been working to grow as of late.

a. The art of asking – delegation: Being “in charge” of this after school program, & co-interning at the Rock has placed responsibilities on me that were not previously there. But I have realized that if I were to do all that I am responsible for, single handedly.. I would probably die. However, each program is set up in a way where there are teams of people. There are others who are eager to be a part of this thing, who are yearning to love in the ways that I myself have been called as well. This is brilliant! This is the body of Christ!
- And a note to all those people; thank you so much! Thank you for your energy, your desire, & your love for serving. It is beautiful & I am so glad to be a part of these programs with you.

b. The art of asking – needing resources: The after school program is run through a non-profit organization. This means that as much as we can, we have to get help.. free help. So this past weekend I went around town and asked a few companies for some donations. It was beautiful! I simply asked, stating my need & watched as each place in turn opened up their registers & gave:
- Foods Co gave me a $25 gift card
- I got 25, $5 pumpkins for 15 bucks total
- A dry cleaner donated 22 hangers
- & soon I’m off to talk to a manager about donating snacks for the year