Sorry, you're just not good enough.

I'm dealing with feelings of inadequacy; & currently I feel that God has given me a bigger task & is now trusting me to make it happen. But I can't, I don't know what I'm doing, what if I mess up!

“Hey Bree, don’t worry; you’re too tiny to get in the way of where the Holy Spirit is moving”.

So we are invited to follow the Lord. And even as our tasks get bigger & our responsibilities increase, we are still just following Him.

We were talking last night about delegation & Josh said “never ask anyone to do what you yourself would not.” With this, I’m not saying that God has asked me to do something he wouldn’t. But the fact that this after school program is one of the biggest things God has asked me to do thus far; it’s tempting to think that he’s letting me do it alone. That he trusts me enough to get it done alone. But that’s not right at all. God wouldn’t ask me to do something that he himself would not. Now, although he may see that I am capable; what he sees is not my ability to accomplish such a feat alone. Yes, he sees that I am ready to leave the bunny hill I’ve been at & go with him down the real mountain; but the point is that it’s not just me. At no point has he left me, nor will he leave me.

I will never be good enough to do this alone.

I will never be good enough to do anything alone,

& this fact is so encouraging!

I may get better at following; but I’ll never have enough “get better” moments where I can lead without following Him first. And I don’t even need to be good enough to do anything without the Lord!

So I shall stop worrying & keep following.

Following is what got me here in the first place, & following is what’s gonna keep me going!

Dear Satan,

I will not listen to your lies about how I am inadequate & that I am alone in all this. You have no authority & your words are just so silly. You see, Christ has died for me. His blood was shed for me, & in His Holy Name I am perfectly adequate. He lives in me & with that:

I will not be tempted by worry – 1 Peter 5:7

I will not sit in fear – 1 John 4:18

Dear Father,

I apologize that I am so easily enticed by the lies of the Evil One. However, I aim to more intentionally see you. I don’t want to take you for advantage; so I would like to actively seek to see how you are good. I would like to be familiar with the power you have instilled in me; through the Spirit you have given to live in me, & for me to live by:

I follow you – Mark 1:17.18

I rest in you – Matthew 11:28

I am not alone – Deuteronomy 31:6

You are my joy – Nehemiah 8:10

In you I have peace – Romans 5:1.2

You are my confidence – Hebrews 10:19.20.21.22.35

Through You I can love – 1 John 4:19

I may not be good enough to lead alone; but I am not inadequate where I lead because I’m indeed, not alone.